Who ever came up with that saying? Today was my 28th birthday and I don’t feel any wiser than I did when I was 27. Sure I know more things, have more stuff in my head but the more I think I know, the more I realize how little I actually do know. Birthdays to me have never been a big deal, I think of it as just another day. This whole week however I have just really been thinking about the years that have gone by and the people and things we take for granted so often. The older I get it seems the more valuable my time becomes. It seems like I will never have enough time to accomplish all the goals I have had in life. Things I have wanted to do since I was a boy seem like they will always be out of reach. I guess maybe I don’t like birthdays because it’s a year closer to running out of time. Or maybe I am disappointed in not accomplishing the goals I set out for myself last year. It seems that no matter how much you plan out your life, life always gets in the way and changes those plans. Now I’m not saying that I don’t enjoy my life by any means it just seems like there are things I always have had in the back of my mind to do that I just never seem to getting around to actually doing it.
I think as I get older I value decision-making a little more than I used to. My personality seems to be changing somewhat. I used to be (and still am to a large degree) a very quick decision maker. Often making a decision without thinking the whole process through. I am really weighing life-changing decisions more now than I used to it seems. It is a fine line to look on the past and think about decisions I would have made differently or look on the past with regret. I don’t regret those decisions but oftentimes play the what would have happened if game. If I had gone to Master’s Commission, if I had finished college, if I had gone to school out-of-state, if I had gone to Bible college etc… All of those were goals of mine at one point in my life.
Now, don’t take that last paragraph as thinking I am not happy where I am, I am totally happy. And you can’t go back to one point in life and say, I wish I would have done this because that decision could have impacted every future decision in your life. If my life decisions would have been different, I may not have met my wonderful wife Misty and wouldn’t have my son Landon right now either. I wouldn’t trade either of those things for the world.
I guess what I am trying to say and what I am trying to learn is to live each day in the moment. You don’t know how many more moments you may have. If there is something you have always wanted to do, seize the moment and do it but don’t let those goals get in the way of what is truly important to you. When I leave this world one day, I don’t want my son to say my dad sure had a lot of accomplishments but he sure never had time for me. Keep the most important things first and make sure you are passing on a legacy to your children and family. The most important thing I can leave my son is the memory of his dad being a Godly man. I have a long way to go in this journey. God still has a great work to do in my life and I know that I have to be much more disciplined in my relationship with God, my family, and my friends to fulfill his purpose and his goals for me.
Til Next Time…..